September 25, 2017
in high school, i picked this poem to read for the poetry out loud competition. recently, i've been thinking a lot about it and am checking out more of mueller's work, published in the later half of the 20th century. she mixes cultural references with naturalistic imagery. Here's the original poem I read, copied and pasted below too.
"Monet Refuses the Operation"
Doctor, you say there are no haloes
around the streetlights in Paris
and what I see is an aberration
caused by old age, an affliction.
I tell you it has taken me all my life
to arrive at the vision of gas lamps as angels,
to soften and blur and finally banish
the edges you regret I don’t see,
to learn that the line I called the horizon
does not exist and sky and water,
so long apart, are the same state of being.
Fifty-four years before I could see
Rouen cathedral is built
of parallel shafts of sun,
and now you want to restore
my youthful errors: fixed
notions of top and bottom,
the illusion of three-dimensional space,
wisteria separate
from the bridge it covers.
What can I say to convince you
the Houses of Parliament dissolve
night after night to become
the fluid dream of the Thames?
I will not return to a universe
of objects that don’t know each other,
as if islands were not the lost children
of one great continent. The world
is flux, and light becomes what it touches,
becomes water, lilies on water,
above and below water,
becomes lilac and mauve and yellow
and white and cerulean lamps,
small fists passing sunlight
so quickly to one another
that it would take long, streaming hair
inside my brush to catch it.
To paint the speed of light!
Our weighted shapes, these verticals,
burn to mix with air
and change our bones, skin, clothes
to gases. Doctor,
if only you could see
how heaven pulls earth into its arms
and how infinitely the heart expands
to claim this world, blue vapor without end.
August 15, 2017
my dear friend sent me my first brain pickings article of Rose-Lynn Fisher's high-res microscopic photos of human tears. even though i'm sad to be parting with my dear and long-trusted homepage of nofilmschool, I am always so pleasantly excited to see what Maria Popova has unearthed from the eternal cultural stockpile and mused about in her articles.
in case you were also under a rock, here's a brainpickings article celebrating its last 10 years.
July 19, 2017
ok, i found this amazing 46 hour, 23 minute playlist from austin kleon's newsletter, which is probably the only newsletter i consistently read because it is packed full of material to stimulate ur senses. GET AUSTIN TO UR INBOX HERE. anyways, here's the playlist - note the ever-changing emoji/wingding/symbols smorgasbord that is the title of this rad collection of songs which are just as eclectic.
July 19, 2017
Well, it's been a minute. I was in Portland a while back as well as being depressed and was, as one does when in Portland and depressed, perusing the shelves of Powell's. I found this zine series by this Ph.D therapist called Dr. Faith's Five Minute Therapy. The one I picked up was on depression called "This is Your Brain on Depression" but there's other ones for grief, addiction, anxiety, anger, relationships, etc. She's a WOC intersectional feminist and, if the woman's making a zine, probably doesn't let that DR title erase her humility (I've met a lot of dr. therapists who have -- remember, the degree a therapist has doesn't always mean they'll be a good fit for you!! keep trying!! stay open!!).
November 20, 2016
Dylan Marron has slowly become one of my favorite comedians out there because he very sarcastically deals with social issues. His unboxing videos are great, but his series "every word spoken by a person of color in [insert mainstream movie title here]" is more relevant to me as a content creator/hopeful future filmmaker. Check it out here.
August 22, 2016
Lauren Singer has an incredibly cool story about how she came to live a zero waste lifestyle. it has inspired me to transition into zero waste myself, because at first my friends and i agreed that this "has to be your whole life," but Lauren makes it so simple and easy. she's even started her own company of vegan, organic, waste-free cleaning products called Simply Co.
July 18, 2016
RED describes well what anamorphic lenses are: basically, they are oval shaped lenses instead of circular so they capture the image differently. in analog they use up more of the celluloid space on 35mm film, while on digital it is mainly used for cool DoF, lense flare, and bokeh effect. but read more here!
June 25, 2016
here are some notes i took and didn't really edit but maybe you will relate it's about mental health
April 23, 2016
20 things i learned at 20
March 04, 2016
A short list of things I've learned.
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The less close you are to a person the less likely they are purposefully trying to hurt you.
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Push yourself everyday to be the best ______ and the most ______, but in the end remember that time is always playing a part you cant control.
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Self-love is important.
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There are a lot of ways to succeed in life. You can’t succeed at all of them but try.
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Being alone will give you some knowledge, even if it is that you don’t like to be alone.
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Sometimes imbalance in your life can lead to something incredible, but coming back to equilibrium is important.
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Things can get worse then better. They can also get worse then worse then better then worse then better. Learn to ride the waves.
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If you are not the coolest person you know ask yourself why and fix that.
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There is no experience or thought you have that doesn’t have a positive or at least neutral perspective to it.
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Don’t let yourself or anyone else make your pain or story irrelevant.
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Bureaucracy will rarely make exceptions. Do things on time.
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It is not wasting time if you are doing it thoughtfully and deliberately.
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Don’t meet society’s timeline for you. Get to meetings on time though.
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Food is really good, but you have so many more good meals left.
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Discipline feels way better than that short-term indulgence.
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Being able to story-tell is a skill. Being able to listen is a skill.
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Learn another language whether it is Spanish or music or multi-linear algebra or salsa. It will open up worlds.
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Doing and learning things that are physical makes you smarter.
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Everyone is faking it till they make it. Kill em with compassion.
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Do everything with purpose, even if you have to write down what the purpose is.
much love,
stas
January 12, 2016
some basics they might not tell you:
pros:
bb-8's head falls off when he runs into walls and its adorable and also not (too) damaging.
its motions are very similar to the movie bb-8, makes it really funny to watch roll around.
mini usb charger is easy to plug into walls or your computer
it's a little uncontrollable but i put this in the pros because its just so cute when he fucks up.
cons:
sound effects come out of your phone:(
it has a patrol function, but only when you still have the app opened on your phone.
basically i would say that i love bb-8 and it was a great birthday present but i would wait for future generations of lil bb-8s to run around your house.
December 29, 2015
Austin Kleon's creative theory is similar to Einstein's (creativity is knowing how to hide your sources). I think this is so incredibly true and this workbook totally helps you understand why it's true and how to channel your own kleptomania.
discovered via A Total Disruption
e-lists i love
December 13, 2015
for news: theSkimm
for art: Booooooom (jeff's secret email club e-list is so eccentric and has brought me really cool internet things - i always look forward to seeing it in my inbox)
for more art: Colossal
for inspiration from hardworkers: My Morning Routine
for filmy stuff: Short Film of the Week
November 23, 2015
a book about the ubiquitousness of loneliness and isolation, TSOPN is slowly tipping fahrenheit 451 off my favorite book spot
did i just say put that on the internet...
November 17, 2015
"The story of a person, suggests London-based photographer Paula Zuccotti, can be told by the items he or she uses, consumes, and handles. Even the most mundane and familiar objects of our daily lives, from our morning routines, workplace habits, to bedtime rituals, carry meanings about who we are, where we come from, and who we want to be."
via feature shoot
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